Stuvac

Last week was the beginning of Stuvac and surprisingly I did manage to have a good start in studying. However, the progress of studying seems to slow down and almost come to a halt as days passed. Distractions came and passed, time flies, things happened, but my progress of studying seems stagnant. Surprisingly, no matter how hard I seem to physch myself this term, my drive to excellent grades seems to die off. Have I become lazier or the drive to compete which I felt so close and pressurizing is not present in this different environment? Thinking of the days where intense competitive feelings rising amid friendships, the mixture of feelings of disappointment, jealously, feelings of guarding grades preciously, were long gone. I do miss the drive but surprisingly I feel more at peace with myself here. No more longing to do better than my closest friends, no more disappointment when I see my friends' grades. Guess either the environment has make me lazier or its just my inate lazy charcter at work. With exams coming up in just one day, I need to focus and no more Arrested Development.

Cheers

Jas